it was a 82km drive from home to visit my dad, grandma, then to the peak before heading home.

a sunny warm, well blessed p.m.. the cemetry very quiet as it was only an ordinary weekday.

time flies, almost 2 yrs since my dad first settled there. very glad to see all well. and very airy and sunny environment. a newly constructed extension we so luckily allocated a space by drawing lot.

at the place where my grandma’s ashes resides, however, much more gloomy. we stayed a while to burn incense, arrange dry flowers, send some blessings.. . only when we left and saw some staff do i realised we might be observed / noted for some time.

probably very few people still visit that place, where the ascended’s ashes were kept almost 50 yrs ago.

kind of like a silent appreciation / recognition of their work for keeping the cemetery open, nice and tidy, even though very few people visit on non traditional / significant dates, and esp. during the pandemic.

i guess both the “graduated” and all those work there are happy. so r daughter and i , of course, being still able to visit our ancestors and know that they are well during the challenging periods.

up at the hill, we were greeted by nice warm fresh air, few people, good veggie foods to be enjoyed on the observation deck with both the setting sun and rising moon, right at 180 degrees!

a very rare citing indeed.

we saw the sun becoming pink before finally faded out in the clouds, and the bright round moon shining higher up.

a short peaceful visit.

very glad to see youngers, family with toddler, couples, people with their beloved dogs…enjoying the blessings and company of each other despite how much we were told we “should” worry / be fearful

today, i went the small beach nearby. surprised to find that the small pc of land by the sea which is quite “remote” occupied by families with kids on a normal weekday p.m.

yet the place where normally packed with people almost empty.

i managed to air surf there for about 20 mins., blending with nature, freely allowing my body to move, mind to rest, feeling the warm sun on my face… and got the privilege again be accompanied by the bright round full moon on my way home.

a lot happened / happening worldwide and locally

trump finally “stepped down”. though much rumors/ prophecy still predict the opposite / a major come back

china and US military flights near taiwan

more protests / clashes at russia

pandemic got very serious again at major china cities, BJ, SH, jilin…

locally, unprecedented concord off an area in jordon / yau ma tei. mandatary testing, not allowing people to go out…

civil servants need to take an oath to stay in office..

we all bombarded with news / surprises everyday that we never thought of would happen. yet it is also a great training for us to stay focus, go internal, count the blessings, and share our good vibrations

to see relaxed smiley / healthy faces now is so rare.

we shall be doing a lot of good to the world just by being peaceful, grateful, joyful, healthy, .. then even a smile / a simple greeting will be so healing; or silent mindless movements / yoga practice be so inspiring …

may we all focus more on ourselves, our own well being and power to manifest, instead of constantly pulled to believe something so horrible / unavoidable.

it is the time for us to reclaim the power as the co-creator. to consciously choose our thoughts, words, deeds and beliefs…

together we observe with awe how the divine transformation unfolds and actively participate in the creation of the new world

Blessings be to all

Sat Nam Deep I

Namaskar

1/23/2021, 4th b.day of our white bro, who found us so unexpectedly.

time flies. so much happened these yrs. maybe time to jot down some major events before i forgot. while the moon shining bright and our crazy neighbour still playing music loud

18th b. day of our daughter, very easy to remember. we moved to WKS. a “hasty” decision. she spent her big day at the 6 star club house with a few friends. before going UK a few months later.

a yr later, due to unexpected water leakage we moved to another estate nearby, again, a very fast decision, which seems great at first, only to discover a few months later our very strange upstairs guy who make noise all the time, day and night, almost daily till 2 – 3 a.m., sometimes 4 a.m.. despite repeated complains/ communication…

home move was followed by selling of our flat, then our car, a very painful process and lots of detachment

the yr we welcome our new bro us even more exciting: daughter went US, followed by an unexpected posting of husband to china, a city we never landed before, and ascension of my dad shortly after both of them left hk.

following yr, i spent most time flying to visit husband, while daughter come back occasionally during holidays.

she finished uni less than 4 yrs unexpectedly, just in time to return hk to see my dad’s ashes properly “housed” at a newly built extension of the cemetery closed to where he used to live. a miracle and countless blessings indeed.

it took us some time to get used to sharing a living space together again after a few yrs of independent living, also enjoying some happy time outdoor / tea at club house… and visited dad during easter .

that was the most “normal period”, 1st half of 2019, when i also thought i have completed most of my mission therefore ready to leave this physical body, thus starting of this blog in May. also had a wonderful b. day at hz, visiting an old road, tea farm on a hill, …

then, alas, 30th anniversary of 6.4. … followed by a series of unbelievable and unprecedented events, almost weekly protest, horrible violence…

surprisingly, i still managed to visit husband that christmas. knowing it’s very likely the last but one time i go there before he completed the project in a few months. Namaskar Too Too decided very wisely to follow me back hk instead of wait till the next / “last” trip, which never materialised.

start of 2020 seems a normally peaceful. daughter and i even managed to joined dance class at our club house for 3 weeks. then came CNY, the 1st day of which also saw the 1st confirmed covid case at our estate. the rest everyone knows.

how planes were grounded, people forced to stay home, wear masks, businesses closed down, fight for groceries…

miraculously husband managed to return mid may, despite horrible lock down measures that were reported. june 1 he started a new job back here. same day, an old friend of a healing circle ascended.

another mission impossible to incorporate items from a 2K sq ft. flat to a 1K one, to be shared by 3 people.

lots of conflicts due to his day and night work schedule, lack of space, different standards / preferences,… causing great stress and lots of physical problems. many times i got really mad / unconscious..

so much so recently that he finally decided to find another flat to move out. and as if god blessed, it was quite a nice and rare one close to we lived. just over the weekend he moved.

suddenly this week, some peace of mind that i have not enjoyed for a long time.

daughter finally got a kitchen of her own so she can enjoy cooking, and a “spacious” private space during daytime to work, rest, relax..

while we still could not afford a flat of our own yet as property price still sky high, at least some quietness / peace / space, which is particularly needed during this challenging time.

i thank the universe for all challenges presented to me over the yrs, looking back, sooooooo impossible to have survived, and sure many valuable lessons learnt.

just in about 5 yrs we lost loved ones, sold our property and car, moved twice, worked / studied in a few cities, witnessed new buildings continuously constructed in our neighborhood, job changes, rent and property price rocketed, and how the govt / systems / promised freedom have deteriorated beyond recognition here at our hometown.

we all have been taught to be loving, sharing, helpful, even sacrifice…

unfortunately there r still many unconscious / less developed beings who like to take advantage of others/ power hungry / like to control others or see others miserable or suffer like themselves ..

for decades, i gave my best to ensure everyone is well cared of / happy; putting my own interests/ well being always the lower priority.

result : people just take me for granted without appreciation.

finally i have learnt that i need to stand up for myself. not to give away my power. that my well being is of primary importance. following my divine path is the best way to serve the world, instead of fitting into the never ending requirements of others.

so glad my daughter can finally have a taste of what i had been through for 2 decades, and it is also her who inspired me to be more self loving.

today, when my precious bro turns 4 , i promised myself i shall close the door behind, leaving the unhappy / mad / compromising me, and start 2nd half of my life afresh.

i shall be a lot more conscious by surrounding myself only with positive, joyful, grateful, open minded, big hearted people, do things that i enjoy / inspired me, de condition from my past as much as possible, keeping a very healthy system at all levels…

my story is probably not uncommon. many full time housewife might resonate. they take up the roles as a chef, janitor, driver, teacher, recreation planner, financial controller, family pr mgr, secretary, counsellor, career advisor, … and juggle between work, school, families, companies…

may u all seek help if needed, and appreciate yr self for how much u have endured to create a loving, healthy and competent next generation / cohesive family

may all loving moms be cherished. for all the sacrifice they have made and energies transferred

we shall surmount all tribulations and rise like phoenix, to welcome a new beginning and a new world

Sat Nam Deep I

Namaskar

it was a warm late afternoon after quite a long period of cold and cloudy days. i went jogging at a seaside promenade.

very glad to see quite many kids / adults playing, cycling, running , walking, taking photos… rather rare for a weekday

i was so blessed with some sunlight before sunset and be able to move a while under a big tree. then, a veggie u don and a new chia seeds cup.

biggest surprise came when it gets darker, and i looked up, be greeted by the beautiful crescent new moon, while the sky is still pink / bright.

a very short , calm, peaceful period that was esp. precious in view of what happened during the 1st 2 weeks of 2021.

an unprecedented arrest of big group of opposition party / people, some as old as 79, including lawyers, ex legco members…

i was super impressed and moved by an ex-priest, now lawyer working mainly for human rights, .. how calm, faithful, strong.. he still is after released on bail and appear in a short 2 min. interview

and how another keeps chanting slogan while being taken away

i firmly believe justice shall prevail. and all happened for a higher reason

from another perspective, whoever being arrested is a kind of confirmation that they have voiced out / fight for human rights / universal values. truly an honour and recognition of all that they have done over the yrs.

some people we never know / heard of before, now come to public attention, and only now do many realised how much they have been working silently for decades for the needy.

there is a chinese saying that do not refrain from doing good regardless how small it is, and do not do any harm regardless of how small.

all good words, thoughts and deeds never go wasted, it will accumulate, grow and sprout at the right time.

the world is certainly undergoing big changes. at the time of writing, canada already thinking of helping its residents back home, in view of possibility of slashing dual nationality here; the controversial US presidential handover in a few days; US strengthening ties with taiwan; N. korea showing off new weapons…

as if the virus is not powerful enough to rock the existing systems/ structures

the old is torn down, truth revealed, new order established..

we shall not be far from a big collapse / beginning

it’s a big test for all of poise, faith, resilience, strength, ..

may we all remember “i am the light the world”, and keep shining under all circumstances

Blessings be to All

Sat Nam Deep I

Namaskar

the last few days of 2020 saw a sudden drop in temp. and strong winds.

quite many unexpected events/ moments/ happenings…

like the pendulum / waves, going up and down..

despite the “chaos”, there r some wonderful times to remember : –

unexpected meet up of a eager learner Simon at the beach morning new year eve, cold, windy, but finally get to pass onto him the healing modules / info. that he has been so looking forward to learn. hope that this would be the beginning for many who will be healed/ transformed / helped for many yrs. to come;

another unexpected meet up with Nick. who brought his beloved peddling board. could not believe that i did go onto it. sit. lie, and finally even try to peddle..it was 8 degrees, people on the shore wearing down jackets watching us…great that the sun was shining bright and did not feel cold at all. water very clear. and calm. such a surreal yet peaceful feeling of “lying on water” without a swim suit. like i was doing yoga on the beach, just it was not sand when look to the sides, but water! time flies. i did not even need toilet for 4 hrs!

1/1 , still cold and windy. managed to move freely at the pier at science park, then being the 1st customer of a seaside restaurant with outdoor seating, normally packed with customers. sun shining at the back. most people arrived later than normal . relatively a quiet, sunny, morning.

at dusk, called to another seaside. husband “balanced the water” . evening snack at public seating surrounded by helpers who were on leave.

this is the 1st yr in decades as far as i remember when so many greeted each other with blessings we normally use for chinese new year on 1/1. all hope for much better days to come after a very challenging 2020

2nd day of 2021, i went air surf at my old school. quiet. sunny. though still cold. gave our car a nice new year wash. before going to that small beach again in p.m.. this time, went further the shore line to enjoy chia seeds by the sea sitting on a big flat rock, 1st time.

another sunny, peaceful, even hot p.m.. people fishing, set up tents, photo taking, brought foods.. or simply scrolling. some braver ones swim / kayak…a painter as well…

this probably is one of the biggest positive consequence of the virus : raising awareness of everyone regarding health / hygiene, and sending more people outdoor to nature, instead of staying much time indoor.

we inspire each other by doing things we like/ enjoy. and co create wonderful moments together by dropping the mind and just being present.

may we all find the joy of being ourselves, at ease, while being loving and considerate enough to embrace / include others; let our minds rest more while the heart takes charge; be very aware of our mental positions yet do not let it assume too significant a position…

then 2021 shall definitely be a magical year of heightened awareness, harmony, joy, collective transformation…

Blessings be to all

Sat Nam Deep I

Namaskar