quite a lot happened near our 29th wedding anniversary
a few weeks earlier, the horrible rash that haunted me for a long time yrs ago, suddenly returned. luckily only limited mainly to lower body. it was a super painful process when one could not function as a human being – too itchy to eat / sleep…
luckily, 2 spiritual teachers also popped up around same time. very unexpectedly
one has been promoting Seth’s teaching for almost 3 decades. it was, like Eckart, a re-connection after many yrs, this time, being able to understand more deeply and put into practice.
with surrender, and faith that external is a mirror / projection of our inner world / result of our thoughts, beliefs… i responded differently this time.
the result : still challenging, but probably cut down suffering to the minimum , and able to rise above tribulation every time.
the day before our anniversary, even able to go swimming with daughter, a dip after 4.5yrs!
the wonderful outdoor pool with sea view, that i visited first time after living here 5 yrs!
last time we swam together was at a resort, beginning of 2017. sooooo much happened since then.
it would be great to “re-activate” this great exercise that i love so much since i was a small, particularly with the presence of daughter at this excellent infinity pool, with trees, bird, sunlight around. how blessed.
then on the actual day and the days follow, i was able to spend much time alone, with nature, sunlight, sunset, new moon, pink clouds, bright stars, beach with much land at low tide…seaside picnic under hot sun, quiet early morning yoga at beach….
and, most importantly, made it very clear that self-reliance shall be the goal forward
never going back to the 3D roll as a wife. which is really sick and too unfair to women, who r expected by society to sacrifice herself for the betterment of the “family”
now with children fully grown and independent, it’s time to get back her basic rights/ power / freedom to be herself, follow her own path, be guided by her own inner compass to create whatever she is meant to create / fulfill her roll as a conscious presence most of the time.
i thank all the challenges / pain/ suffering / people .. who have brought me here. know ultimately i am the one who chose to be involved in all that in order to grow, learn, see clearly, get wiser, stronger, more loving towards oneself and others….and to ultimately know who we are, our power , mission…
so goodbye 1st 5 decades of my life, during which i chose for myself great hurdles
from now on, create and expect “miracles”, regardless of externals.
Blessings be to all
Sat Nam Deep I
Namaskar