Love never dies

it’s sometimes hard to believe how things that happened so long ago can be so clearly remembered. like being recorded by a video camera, the images very deeply imprinted into the memory.

my grandma (dad’s mom) lived together with my parents, sister and me until she passed away when i was 4/5 . i can still clearly “see” the flat, my cot, her bed… even how i saw her lying in the funeral parlour. no fear. just very peaceful like sleeping. she was the one who spend most of the time with me when i was small. watching me coming back from kindergarten from a window, accompanied by another lady. …

i never felt she left me even after she was not in the physical body 40+ years ago. quite the contrary, i sense her presence all the time. a very loving, embracing, unconditional type.

my other grandparents lived close to our home then. we visited them often and share a big meal every week. the scenes, even the smell and look of the foods still very vivid.

my uncle and aunt, finally much better off than my parents, invited us often to their home, took us to swim in luxurious clubs, boat trips, resorts..

Heartfelt thanks to you all those for all your love, generosity and kindness. no kind thought /word / deed will be forgotten no matter how small.

Love never dies. Only love is real.

Namaskar

Sat Nam Deep I

the Holy Encounter

i have the privilege to have met a few people in my life who instantly connect. there appear to be sense of deep trust and familiarity even at the very first encounter.

we normally share a period where we attend some lessons /events regularly, then sooner or later , we part.

often we don’t connect even online for a long time, yet whenever there is a chance to meet up, the wonderful feeling is still the same.

yes, to lay down our mask and open up is sometimes risky and make us vulnerable, but that should not prevent us from reaching out.

i agree with the saying that ultimately it is how many hearts that we have touched that matters most instead of money, fame, …

May we all have stronger, bigger, more resilient hearts so that we can fear less and love more.

Namaskar

Sat Nam Deep I

Laugh out Loud

My daughter has great sense of humor. we often LOL on the street esp. after seeing some very unconscious behavior.

it is very interesting to see how the others respond. some showed a smile, kind of like infected, while others look at us like aliens! haahahah

isn’t life already challenging enough to be taken so seriously?

laughter might not only the best medicine but a very powerful tool to dissolve / transform hostility / anxiety / suspicion …

laugh at the absurdity, seriousness, madness of ourselves and others…

help lighten up the world to make it a more sane place.

Namaskar

Sat Nam Deep I

Social Conditioning

Since very small, we all have been conditioned to think / act in certain way according to our gender, culture, social norm, social class, family background…

As a Chinese i was born to parents with the very common traditional belief that children are treated almost like life-long private properties that are supposed to generate income and service as long as they survive.

the thinking probably originated during the times when agriculture is common and more children means greater work force thus higher productivity.

the concept of “养儿防老” is still common nowadays where children are seen as a kind of insurance policy for old age.

for half a century, i tried my utmost to fulfill my role as a “good daughter” despite how much i disagree with this idea.

i am not saying we should not be good to our parents, yet it should come only from our hearts instead of a duty. All children can tell whether someone is really good to them or only treat them a mean to an end.

i was brought up with the motto “should”. that i should do what i am supposed to do, never what i like.

the positive side of this is : my painful experience serve as a perfect example of what not to do for my parenting, so that i am able to nourish my daughter into a happy jolly with much wisdom, consciousness and big heart.

today, she is the one who encourages me to be more of myself, to say no / stand firm against demands, even though that means disapproval / mis-understanding from others.

my suggestion to all parents is that we act as facilitators / coaches / guides to our children to help them blossom into the flower they are supposed to be, instead of moulding them into someone we’d like them to be.

then they shall remain genuinely grateful and become a positive force / power / energy to enhance the world throughout their lives.

Namaskar

Sat Nam Deep I

The Journey

Life seems to be a series of acquisition and letting go.

We were born with very little apart from our physical bodies. Over the years, we accumulate foods, knowledge, skills, belief systems, people, materials…

somehow, at a certain time, either these people / places / things leave us, or we choose to leave them.

It seems that it is not how much we have acquired that promote inner joy / peace / health, but rather how much we are able to let go :

the need to be right / understood / agreed to / approved / conform / liked / treated well / special / superior / change others…and ultimately, our physical bodies.

only then can we stay joyful / peaceful / healthy… regardless of external circumstances while we still have a physical form, and a smooth transition back to the Source is possible.

Namaskar

Sat Nam Deep I

Beyond Form Identity

i wonder, what kind of world this will become if everyone enjoys equal pay, social status, respect… regardless of what u do. that a janitor will be seen as equally important as a lawyer, doctor, accountant….

sometimes it is heart breaking to see that the majority of human is still so totally identify with everything on the surface : our family / education background, possessions, occupations, abilities, social connections, physical appearance, countries, gender… We forgot we share the same true essence, thus try our very best to be “superior”, resulting in all kinds of unnecessary competitions, comparison, jealousy, imbalances, insanity …

is a bird in anyway better / superior than a fish just because it can fly /sing ? or more colorful or have a nest?

when will we ever learn that we all are incomparably unique, various manifestations of the same One Consciousness?

only when one becomes aware of one’s essence identity will one truly respect each form, be it a human, an animal, a flower, a cup… that all our actions will become more sane and loving, that the highest good of all will be served instead of personal interests….and there will be less boundaries but greater oneness.

may we all be showered with greater universal consciousness esp. for the younger generations, so that we all realised each of us is only a small particle in the universe. there is no need for a big ego .

only then will harmonious co-existence of all life forms be possible without a big shakeup.

Namaskar

Sat Nam Deep I

The Invaluable Ordinary Life

when my daughter was about 7 / 8 years old, i lived a very ordinary and routine life. like many other full-time moms, the whole focus was on the kids. everyday is tuned to school / activity schedules.

we lived near a riverside then. very often i would have some free time strolling along the promenade when i was alone, watching a boat collecting rubbish along the river leisurely, sometimes with a big egret as a company standing on its top!

a common thought i had then was : is that all to life? do i spend my time like this for the rest of my life?

the universe showed me how “exciting” life can be, when about 6/ 7 years ago, i was forced into a deep, fast and intense detox, triggered by simply attending a 2-day course on akashic record.

what followed was truly beyond imagination. for years, rash will appear any where in the body any time, making me unable to simply function as a human being . could not eat nor sleep…

all sorts of healing modalities were tried. simple, high tech…

heart-felt appreciation to my husband who has stood by my side all along with all kinds technical, financial, emotional support…

it took me a few years to get back to a more sane life, before another challenging period, during which, in just 3 -4 years, we experienced 2 home moves, sale of the flat we spent so much time to create and lived in for 9 years, said goodbye to our 14-year-old car that grew together with my daughter, saw my daughter becoming full-fledged daring young adult, went abroad to further university study in 2 countries, a surprising out of hometown post for my husband, which leave me all alone in my birth place most of the time and frequent travelling between the 2 cities. ., the ascension of my dad….

now with a much earlier than expected graduation of my daughter, she is now ready to move on to another new chapter in life.

it is such a rewarding experience to see her grow so much in more than 2 decades into a kind, loving, daring, wise, conscious young adult.

the physical challenge does re appear from time to time, yet with the help of all spiritual teachers, new healing tools developed by my husband, and all that i have learnt and applied on the way, i am now able to face it with greater ease.

it’s almost like looking back into a previous life when i re-visit the same place where i used to watch the boat peacefully sailing along the river.

appreciate the ordinary. don’t take it for granted. for it is very often that only when something is taken away from us that we realised how much we are enjoying.

a cup of tea, a breath of fresh air, wonderful sunlight, flowers, birds, other wonderful beings around us…

there is phrase in the movie ” shine” that strike me rather deeply : money can’t buy u everything.

how much will you accept to give up a leg, an arm… be paralyzed?

that is how much most of us are enjoying everyday.

start living now!

Namaskar

Sat Nam Deep I

Oh Dear Feathery Friends!

i bow to you for your forgiveness, resilience, bravery, trust, curiosity, love… towards a not very conscious species called “human”

you have demonstrated how it is possible to live with dignity, ease, even joy / pride in a not very ideal setting.

may you all be freed, one way or another, very soon, for all the wonderful work you have done here this life.

Namaskar

Sat Nam Deep I

It’s ok be Slow

In this internet age where increasing speed seems to be one of our very important goal, isn’t it amazing to note that many other live forms with a much slower pace still exist?

i am often inspired when seeing those grey pigeons (which often give a “gu gu” sound) live alongside with the very agile sparrows. Those gu gus have wings but seldom fly. They walk most the time. Yet have no problem at all surviving at the same place with sparrows, which are more capable in getting foods.

Only recently do my daughter and i also noticed how they defend their territory : by standing boldly , calmly, undeterred, look us in the eyes, then add some sound! hahahaha

Anyone who has seen how an egret fish will also know that these super calm and still creatures can stand / remain in a certain posture for a long time before a sudden strike, that normally is successful.

While not hungry, egrets spend most time seemingly enjoy looking at the sea, fulfilled and peaceful.

Tortoise, spend much time being still, enjoy sunbathing…

Many other creatures do not move fast : pandas, sloth, elephants…

Maybe this is why we can be so mesmerized by simply looking at these wonderful beings, as they remind us of our essence that is so often overlooked / covered up : stillness, awareness, consciousness…

May we all learn to slow down a little, have more gaps in the midst of all hustle bustle, connect with our true essence more often…. Then this world will certainly become a more loving place.

Namaskar

Sat Nam Deep I

Birds in Sanctuary

My daughter and i are so fascinated every time we visit the walk in sanctuary in Hong Kong Park where many species of birds are kept. Some of them are super human friendly that they will come very close to us. One can almost hug/ kiss them!

i have deep respect for these super brave, trusting and loving beings, who sacrificed their freedom to provide us with such amazing experience. Despite being shot by many cameras / phones and disturbed by not very friendly gestures of visitors esp. very excited kids, these wonderful creatures remain calm, resilient, even appear to be rather interested in humans!

May we all remember that we are the one who took away their freedom in the first place. While appreciating their beauty, have gratitude towards these amazing live forms, who managed not only to surrender totally to a new captive environment but becoming so human friendly.

Namaskar

Sat Nam Deep I