1/23/2021, 4th b.day of our white bro, who found us so unexpectedly.

time flies. so much happened these yrs. maybe time to jot down some major events before i forgot. while the moon shining bright and our crazy neighbour still playing music loud

18th b. day of our daughter, very easy to remember. we moved to WKS. a “hasty” decision. she spent her big day at the 6 star club house with a few friends. before going UK a few months later.

a yr later, due to unexpected water leakage we moved to another estate nearby, again, a very fast decision, which seems great at first, only to discover a few months later our very strange upstairs guy who make noise all the time, day and night, almost daily till 2 – 3 a.m., sometimes 4 a.m.. despite repeated complains/ communication…

home move was followed by selling of our flat, then our car, a very painful process and lots of detachment

the yr we welcome our new bro us even more exciting: daughter went US, followed by an unexpected posting of husband to china, a city we never landed before, and ascension of my dad shortly after both of them left hk.

following yr, i spent most time flying to visit husband, while daughter come back occasionally during holidays.

she finished uni less than 4 yrs unexpectedly, just in time to return hk to see my dad’s ashes properly “housed” at a newly built extension of the cemetery closed to where he used to live. a miracle and countless blessings indeed.

it took us some time to get used to sharing a living space together again after a few yrs of independent living, also enjoying some happy time outdoor / tea at club house… and visited dad during easter .

that was the most “normal period”, 1st half of 2019, when i also thought i have completed most of my mission therefore ready to leave this physical body, thus starting of this blog in May. also had a wonderful b. day at hz, visiting an old road, tea farm on a hill, …

then, alas, 30th anniversary of 6.4. … followed by a series of unbelievable and unprecedented events, almost weekly protest, horrible violence…

surprisingly, i still managed to visit husband that christmas. knowing it’s very likely the last but one time i go there before he completed the project in a few months. Namaskar Too Too decided very wisely to follow me back hk instead of wait till the next / “last” trip, which never materialised.

start of 2020 seems a normally peaceful. daughter and i even managed to joined dance class at our club house for 3 weeks. then came CNY, the 1st day of which also saw the 1st confirmed covid case at our estate. the rest everyone knows.

how planes were grounded, people forced to stay home, wear masks, businesses closed down, fight for groceries…

miraculously husband managed to return mid may, despite horrible lock down measures that were reported. june 1 he started a new job back here. same day, an old friend of a healing circle ascended.

another mission impossible to incorporate items from a 2K sq ft. flat to a 1K one, to be shared by 3 people.

lots of conflicts due to his day and night work schedule, lack of space, different standards / preferences,… causing great stress and lots of physical problems. many times i got really mad / unconscious..

so much so recently that he finally decided to find another flat to move out. and as if god blessed, it was quite a nice and rare one close to we lived. just over the weekend he moved.

suddenly this week, some peace of mind that i have not enjoyed for a long time.

daughter finally got a kitchen of her own so she can enjoy cooking, and a “spacious” private space during daytime to work, rest, relax..

while we still could not afford a flat of our own yet as property price still sky high, at least some quietness / peace / space, which is particularly needed during this challenging time.

i thank the universe for all challenges presented to me over the yrs, looking back, sooooooo impossible to have survived, and sure many valuable lessons learnt.

just in about 5 yrs we lost loved ones, sold our property and car, moved twice, worked / studied in a few cities, witnessed new buildings continuously constructed in our neighborhood, job changes, rent and property price rocketed, and how the govt / systems / promised freedom have deteriorated beyond recognition here at our hometown.

we all have been taught to be loving, sharing, helpful, even sacrifice…

unfortunately there r still many unconscious / less developed beings who like to take advantage of others/ power hungry / like to control others or see others miserable or suffer like themselves ..

for decades, i gave my best to ensure everyone is well cared of / happy; putting my own interests/ well being always the lower priority.

result : people just take me for granted without appreciation.

finally i have learnt that i need to stand up for myself. not to give away my power. that my well being is of primary importance. following my divine path is the best way to serve the world, instead of fitting into the never ending requirements of others.

so glad my daughter can finally have a taste of what i had been through for 2 decades, and it is also her who inspired me to be more self loving.

today, when my precious bro turns 4 , i promised myself i shall close the door behind, leaving the unhappy / mad / compromising me, and start 2nd half of my life afresh.

i shall be a lot more conscious by surrounding myself only with positive, joyful, grateful, open minded, big hearted people, do things that i enjoy / inspired me, de condition from my past as much as possible, keeping a very healthy system at all levels…

my story is probably not uncommon. many full time housewife might resonate. they take up the roles as a chef, janitor, driver, teacher, recreation planner, financial controller, family pr mgr, secretary, counsellor, career advisor, … and juggle between work, school, families, companies…

may u all seek help if needed, and appreciate yr self for how much u have endured to create a loving, healthy and competent next generation / cohesive family

may all loving moms be cherished. for all the sacrifice they have made and energies transferred

we shall surmount all tribulations and rise like phoenix, to welcome a new beginning and a new world

Sat Nam Deep I

Namaskar

it was a warm late afternoon after quite a long period of cold and cloudy days. i went jogging at a seaside promenade.

very glad to see quite many kids / adults playing, cycling, running , walking, taking photos… rather rare for a weekday

i was so blessed with some sunlight before sunset and be able to move a while under a big tree. then, a veggie u don and a new chia seeds cup.

biggest surprise came when it gets darker, and i looked up, be greeted by the beautiful crescent new moon, while the sky is still pink / bright.

a very short , calm, peaceful period that was esp. precious in view of what happened during the 1st 2 weeks of 2021.

an unprecedented arrest of big group of opposition party / people, some as old as 79, including lawyers, ex legco members…

i was super impressed and moved by an ex-priest, now lawyer working mainly for human rights, .. how calm, faithful, strong.. he still is after released on bail and appear in a short 2 min. interview

and how another keeps chanting slogan while being taken away

i firmly believe justice shall prevail. and all happened for a higher reason

from another perspective, whoever being arrested is a kind of confirmation that they have voiced out / fight for human rights / universal values. truly an honour and recognition of all that they have done over the yrs.

some people we never know / heard of before, now come to public attention, and only now do many realised how much they have been working silently for decades for the needy.

there is a chinese saying that do not refrain from doing good regardless how small it is, and do not do any harm regardless of how small.

all good words, thoughts and deeds never go wasted, it will accumulate, grow and sprout at the right time.

the world is certainly undergoing big changes. at the time of writing, canada already thinking of helping its residents back home, in view of possibility of slashing dual nationality here; the controversial US presidential handover in a few days; US strengthening ties with taiwan; N. korea showing off new weapons…

as if the virus is not powerful enough to rock the existing systems/ structures

the old is torn down, truth revealed, new order established..

we shall not be far from a big collapse / beginning

it’s a big test for all of poise, faith, resilience, strength, ..

may we all remember “i am the light the world”, and keep shining under all circumstances

Blessings be to All

Sat Nam Deep I

Namaskar

the last few days of 2020 saw a sudden drop in temp. and strong winds.

quite many unexpected events/ moments/ happenings…

like the pendulum / waves, going up and down..

despite the “chaos”, there r some wonderful times to remember : –

unexpected meet up of a eager learner Simon at the beach morning new year eve, cold, windy, but finally get to pass onto him the healing modules / info. that he has been so looking forward to learn. hope that this would be the beginning for many who will be healed/ transformed / helped for many yrs. to come;

another unexpected meet up with Nick. who brought his beloved peddling board. could not believe that i did go onto it. sit. lie, and finally even try to peddle..it was 8 degrees, people on the shore wearing down jackets watching us…great that the sun was shining bright and did not feel cold at all. water very clear. and calm. such a surreal yet peaceful feeling of “lying on water” without a swim suit. like i was doing yoga on the beach, just it was not sand when look to the sides, but water! time flies. i did not even need toilet for 4 hrs!

1/1 , still cold and windy. managed to move freely at the pier at science park, then being the 1st customer of a seaside restaurant with outdoor seating, normally packed with customers. sun shining at the back. most people arrived later than normal . relatively a quiet, sunny, morning.

at dusk, called to another seaside. husband “balanced the water” . evening snack at public seating surrounded by helpers who were on leave.

this is the 1st yr in decades as far as i remember when so many greeted each other with blessings we normally use for chinese new year on 1/1. all hope for much better days to come after a very challenging 2020

2nd day of 2021, i went air surf at my old school. quiet. sunny. though still cold. gave our car a nice new year wash. before going to that small beach again in p.m.. this time, went further the shore line to enjoy chia seeds by the sea sitting on a big flat rock, 1st time.

another sunny, peaceful, even hot p.m.. people fishing, set up tents, photo taking, brought foods.. or simply scrolling. some braver ones swim / kayak…a painter as well…

this probably is one of the biggest positive consequence of the virus : raising awareness of everyone regarding health / hygiene, and sending more people outdoor to nature, instead of staying much time indoor.

we inspire each other by doing things we like/ enjoy. and co create wonderful moments together by dropping the mind and just being present.

may we all find the joy of being ourselves, at ease, while being loving and considerate enough to embrace / include others; let our minds rest more while the heart takes charge; be very aware of our mental positions yet do not let it assume too significant a position…

then 2021 shall definitely be a magical year of heightened awareness, harmony, joy, collective transformation…

Blessings be to all

Sat Nam Deep I

Namaskar

certainly a very special one to remember. when everyone has mask on + other restrictions.

yet we were so blessed with a warm, even hot sunny periods of a few days over the weekends. many took the last chance before it turns much cooler later this week to get outdoor for some sunlight and fresh air.

we did not really plan for any special activities yet turned out be very blessed with much amazing moments :

morning yoga by the sea

silent simple outdoor dinner on silent night

setting sun+ rising moon at quiet hilltop, busy park, small beaches…

quiet Christmas snack at outdoor theatre

short family gathering + video call from overseas

reconnecting with long term no talk friends

sharing our blessings by sending goodies to our helper and donate to the needy…

knowing everyone we know of is keeping very well despite all challenges…

we do not need to write / talk all the time. the best gift we can give another is to stay healthy, joyful, strong, faithful, pure and clean at all levels, then we shall radiate good vibes wherever we are, and be a walking blessings wherever we go / to all those we interact with.

may we all take good care ourselves, so that we can care for others who r in need.

may the spirit of Christmas stay with all of us everyday till next yr! hahahahaha hohohohohohoho

Blessings be to all

Sat Nam Deep I

Namaskar

certainly will be long remembered. a yr when the unimaginable happened

passenger carried by our flag carrier dropped almost 99%, once an int’l uk bank ‘turned red”, hk / govt. become so unrecognisable and unbelievable in only 1+ yr. , what we used to enjoy or even take for granted disappeared so fast that it seems we have jumped collectively to another parallel universe over night!

masks, measuring temp., social distancing… become the new norm, operating hours of shops and restaurants vary all the time, new rules implemented any time, mandatory screening, or be moved to quarantine centre.. all just by the decision of the very few at the top / “experts”

structure / prudent procedures / policies that were once followed dissolved. .. making everything so arbitrary / random / positively, fluid! hahhaha

we all learn to be very flexible. grateful, for what we still can enjoy each day, knowing things might change dramatically over night.

hopefully business owners/ mgrs / planners also learnt great lessons.

there is a 2-storey mall we have been visiting for 20+ yrs. i used to enjoy the natural sunlight from the big ceiling. it was then at quite a “remote location” with a department store and shops selling middle priced items.

over the yrs nearby areas a lot more developed. buses shipped customers from mainland. carpark always full esp. weekends.. traffic jam during sales…

then the property owner decided to shut it down for a few yrs to add 1 more floor, with a lot more retail space, yet most shops and the mall almost window less, low ceiling, no daylight, nor fresh air…

result : high concentration of people in big enclosed area thus very high health risks. already a few confirmed cases.

the shopping experience is totally different also. most customers do not enjoy stay long in pressured / “trapped” zone with no natural sunlight.

i hope mgt. have learnt that more retail space not necessarily mean more business, and a socially responsible enterprise should not set profit as the only target

another mall at prime tourists destination also closed down for big renovation for a few yrs. again, re open this yr, and replaced most middle ranged shops / restaurants with high end ones.

some already closed down probably due to high rent and insufficient customers. others replaced…

positively, this is a yr when the wheel of fortune finally turns. what once considered gold mine, thus so used to ripping off customers, hardest hit.

we no longer put so much attention to our appearance but health

people re connect with nature, spending more time outdoor instead of shopping

unnecessary gathering thus gossips cut down. the mass forced to spend more time with oneself / only a few stead of big group, hopefully better re connect with our inner self / true essence…

eating no longer a social event but a necessity. cutting down waste of foods

buffets, banquet… all banned or limited … mother earth probably very happy 🙂

chained cafe that once seldom cut price, now offer daily discount after 7 p.m. instead of throwing unsold items away…

a lot of good things r happening despite the “bad” on the surface.

we treasure what we used to enjoy a lot more when it is taken away.

it’s a great yr for deep reflection, higher consciousness, letting go of what do not serve us good anymore / bad habits, appreciating what we still have / can do, setting new goals, raising standards for the highest good of all…

may we all become wiser, stronger, more resilient, big hearted… shedding the old, to welcome the new earth.

Sat Nam Deep I

Namaskar

what a friendly and welcoming species!

they grow long branches with flowers at the end, reaching out to all directions, extending over walls, yet dropping so low that could be touched, or at least be very close to all those who walked by.

so heart warming to see people still have the consciousness and mood to stop by and take photos. appreciating this simple yet profound beauty many others simply ignore / take for granted.

when they blossom, the whole tree is full of flowers. even after the flowers dropped, they paved the road so generously with their bright colorful petals.

bees and butterflies like to be around..

like many other life forms, they might be short lived, yet their beauty, fragrance, hospitality, richness,… shine through and radiate for a short period, to resonate with those who r open and grateful for their existence.

in a way their r very similar to butterflies. a few bodies i saw lately on the ground. it was getting cold. and even after the wonderful being ascended, its body still lie so beautifully on the ground. sometimes with wings up.

i wish more of us can come to realise the impermanence of all forms, including that of human. a “pop” by universe standard like many spiritual teachers have mentioned.

it’s certainly not worthwhile to waste precious life time competing, worrying, destroying, controlling, getting angry, miserable…

simply be our true selves, and the world shall be rich and complete

Sat Nam Deep I

Namaskar

temp. dropped almost 10 degrees today. i decided to go further to a more “remote” beach to air surf.

it was very windy so the normally crowded place now very quiet.

for the 1st time, i saw a group of 7 cows eating grass on a small slope above sea, + 2 egrets joining them, sometimes stand on the cows!

such a sweet surprise and big reward for coming out despite the coolness

above the small slope is an open car park. with village houses. those cows probably very familiar with the place and residents here that they grazed and stayed on the carpark leisurely, gave me a look before continuing their lunch 🙂

such a rare picture now given more and more land here have been rezoned for property development and many trees pulled down.

may we all have more respect for all life forms. realising that they play their parts silently to make this world a better place. there r a lot to be learnt from these big creatures. so calm, gentle, yet strong and powerful.

may we all co exist in harmony, appreciating each other’s existence. then the world shall be full of grace, beauty, love, joy, abundance….

Blessings be to all

Sat Nam Deep I

Namaskar

coincidentally my cousin’s birthday. great to do know they all doing well despite the lock down.

back here, blessed with 2 consecutive sunny days with low tide around noon. still warm and great for work out on beach. i was blessed with the presence of a like minded friend + a very trustful egret!

today, a sat, i went the small beach late evening unexpectedly.

many people were already there. camping, family with kids, dog, friends singing with microphone and amplifier, …i stayed somewhere further away from where i normally do as the place already very crowded. later on, many more arrived.

it was wonderful to still be able to move / dance freely despite many walked / stayed nearby. interestingly while most people r with masks, they all seem calm, at ease, doing want they enjoyed: painting, photo taking, playing in water / sand, singing, or simply walking, standing to admire the setting sun…

all sorts of visitors : babies, kids, teenager, elderly, locals, foreigners,… no one too alarmed by what others r doing, all blended in harmoniously.

nature certainly has some magical power. it stops our monkey mind so most of us simply look / be in awe. enjoying the vastness of the sky, sound of the waves, gentle breeze, warm setting sun, .. or any activities we love.

by being our true self, we allowed others to do the same

by honoring our uniqueness, we accept and appreciate others’ uniqueness

may we all live in peace, harmony, and celebrate the joy of totality while honoring individuality

Blessings be to all

Sat Nam Deep I

Namaskar

it feels like more like spring than winter lately. with butterflies always in sight and bauhinia blossoming everywhere.

i was amused always when i see butterflies visiting our home, either out of the window / balcony as we r living at very high levels of high rise apartments. so impressed by how they managed to fly so high from ground level just to say hello.

such a big honour and blessing.

kind of like a constant signal reminding me of a transformation we all r undergoing.

i was visited by bees also very often. sometimes shortly after i arrived beach before starting exercise.

and on the way, butterflies came close to say hello

these small insects might be insignificant to many, yet if we pay attention / gratitude, they seem to have a lot to tell us.

just by their very presence is a blessing. how much trust is needed to stay so close / even land on a moving human being! size of which enormous to them. even big birds dare not come close.

butterflies mean a lot to me. how much pain / patience do they have to endure to transform from a 2D catepillar to a flying, free being.

just by being themselves, they r super inspiring.

just by letting go of fear and come close to human, they spread much love and blessings, beauty, grace…

may we all learn to notice and appreciate various life forms around us . so as to discover the wonder and blessings that is always around.

Sat Nam Deep I

Namaskar

it is winter already according to lunar calendar. getting more windy yet still can be hot when sun is around

i had the luxury to move. dance. yoga. stretch. roll… by the sea for a few consecutive sunny days. it was a window period of low tide for around 2 – 3 hours around noon. so many lucky ones went to have a walk / lunch / take photos, fly drones…

large pc of land exposed allowing more space for everyone.

while there r still some people yelling/ talk loudly, others mostly quiet. particularly surprising for a sunday morning.

big egrets came by to walk in shallow water.

it was a totally different experience doing some simple exercises when u can see the far away sea while doing sit up, or blue blue sky while back roll , or large pc of soft sandy beach looking to the sides…feeling the warm sun on the back while stretching forward…

such simple yet priceless moments + blessings from the universe

so glad that no violence/ conflicts occur on the anniversary of 11.11.

peace begin with each of us. when we r at peace, so will the world.

may we all learn to talk less. appreciate silence more. have more time alone to connect with our true essence. and trust that by doing so we shall have made a great contribution to a better world.

Sat Nam Deep I

Namaskar